Dreams are renewable. No matter what our age or condition, there are still untapped possibilities within us and new beauty waiting to be born.

-Dale Turner-

Thursday, November 20, 2008

this world is crazy!

In the past, everything hv a purpose on earth. For survival.



Now everthing on earths is for money! YES MONEY! They can simply do anything for MONEY! Look at sars, where chicken is killing people. Yet people r so native to believe that it is generic problem that new disese like sars that is causing this plauge. FYI, it all started because farmer wants to cut cost on feeding the chicken, tts when they uses dead animals left overs and mixed it with seeds to feed the chicken. Tts y the chicken is sick.



In order to produce eggs, sick chicken are being kept tgt, and thus the illness is spread. Once the chicken is dead, they sell their DEAD body for money.



Same for mad cow, sick cow that "cant walk" are being sold to slaughter house to be processed into the mad cow meat that we consume.



Now the milk, do u noe wat happen? In china, milk are being categorized into grades. The one with more protine are in the higher grade. So what do the smart alex, go n add in "caramai" which is a substance that u used to produce plastic spoons into it. So that a higher proteint milk can be produced, and a higher cost can be sold.



So aft all these, do u noe who is tt damn asshole that is casusing all these problem? MONEY MONEY MONEY!! That greedy face, tt ugle and disgusting and filty shit MONEY is the cause!!



But wat can i do? Simply tell ppl tt i hate money and then gv it away? N wat will be the result of tt? me being a begger and no one simply gv a damn abt me who cares so much for them?



Now i noe the problem n i cant solve it? Am i 2pid? Can u solve it? Ppl do things to earn more this is the simple logic. I cant blame them, but if there is no money do u think ppl will work so hard then? What world am i living in? What believe do i hold? its all meaningless now, if i hv my pride, my honour, my duty, i will be a begger rite at this moment that i am saying. N this blog wun be seen.



But rite nw i am sitting comfortably in my room, enjoying musice, aircon n my hot cup of coffee all due to money. So am i a filty shit asshole? Do u noe where our money is used for exchanged in our comfortable socialty? Ppl in afraica now is farming for the sack of eating 1 grain of rice, n wat did i do in the exchange of hving such a gd life? Stoning while i am working? act blur and avoiding all the arrows in my office?



Can u c a world like this aft a hundred yr? I can onli c chaos and madness being roamed arnd the whole world.

Sunday, November 16, 2008

Found the pic tt i wan


Anyone knows any place where i can print an picture onto the shirt?

Wednesday, November 12, 2008

count dwn to D-day

Studied days - 14days
module studied - 2
knowledge level - 0
exam day - 22hrs later
I AM GOIN CRAZY!!!
WHY UNI THINGS CANT UNDERSTAND ONE!!!!!!!!!!!!

Friday, November 7, 2008

55 marks..

got a 55 for my econs. was so shock when i got back the result... :( feeling so helpless at this moment when exam is abt 5 more days???

Nv did i tot that i could score so low, still dreaming of gettin an 80 when the result is a 55. something is wrong wif my understandin. DEADMAN WALKING...

Wednesday, November 5, 2008

1 more A into my collection

This week got back a quiz result which i got a B for maths

And 1 more A+ for my programming.

Uni is reali a shit place for geeks. Hate the smell of geeky geek. I simply dun belong to where i am. But nvm, human always survive on changes anrd them. so CHANGE!!

Exam in 1 weeks time, stress like hell. My study place is like a battlefield now. My beds and floors are all filled with papers. I am too shame of posting tt scene here, the scene of how a real man's room shld look like. haha.. its in our man instinct to be messy, i cant help me but be a man u noe.

Wednesday, October 22, 2008

its always a joy thinkin back..

lol.. was laughing all the way thru when i saw this clip again.

Its reali fun!! hw i wish i could go back time and enjoy those moments... But reality is always hash. Time for studies and a long holiday break is waiting for me... eerrmmmm ERH!!

Friday, October 10, 2008

feeling sinful!

This week, i reali gv up in studyin. Too mani n too little tt i understand. Did not touch any of my notes or homework. haha... feeling so sinful. N worst of all exams r comin up!! Juz had supper wif friends n played a game of DOTA. Its reali so fun to reali enjoy fun without thinkin of all the work tt nids to be done. LOL!! I nv feel so free, shld be more hack care abt studies! no pain no stress!! n TONS TONS of FUN!!

Tuesday, October 7, 2008

VIDEO!!!

Received this video frm my friend, i dare not view till 1 mth later.. LOL!!

Monday, October 6, 2008

cock ups!!

Had a test 2day. but din manage to do it well. feeling reali veri dwn, moody n useless.

Sometimes i juz hate the idea tt i actually lose to an mainland ppl, or an indian. Yes i admin tt i am arrogant. But tts my pride! I dun wan to lose to indians, i dun wan to lose to mainland. I wan to be the best. and i guess i can onli be the worst...

Monday, September 29, 2008

1st test in Uni, 1st A in Uni



Lol. Finally my 1st A for my 1st test. Actually its an A- la. Not reali an A. Update soonz.... Uni is reali tough~

Saturday, September 27, 2008

Looking back...

Erm... today was the day my brother going to Reading and study for his masters in finance risk management. Me too wanted to study finance, but i was forced to study engin...

Anyway tt part of my faith had been decided so lets not tok abt it. Well, i was at airport today. And suddenly i realized my thinking, behavior and everthing is so much different when i was 2 yrs ago! Maybe its reali army tt had shaped me into a better person! haha.. But to friends tt had reali noe me well, i am still me afterall.

Sounds confussin? haha.. Let it be then. I am always confussed abt things...

Tuesday, September 23, 2008

Happy happy n still happy~~

Was peeping thru evelyn's blog and i spot this gd news!! In this issue of Mag "U" there is the write ups on the "be a star"!!

And here is the write up on XAJE and "mo tian lun"!! The feeling of knowing this is reali gre8!! haha.. finally some results can be seen after so long of hardwork. JIA YOU!! Hope that one day all our dreams can turn into reality. In the mean while, time for proj. and studies.

Till one day where all effort our efforts can be crystalized into something that we are all proud of!!!

Monday, September 22, 2008

Toilte in HK

Do you noe tt in HK there will be this device located in the cubical where you can use to clean the seats for your toilte bowl!!
Basically u nid to place a tissue under this device where it will realese a cleaning gel for you to wipe on the seats of the toilte bowl. How thoughtful rite!!


Those were the days...






My birthday bash on 27th Jan 06



Si Chun's birthday bash on 20th May 06




Bryan's birthday bash on 05th Jun 06






But where is my beloved zi jie... Now when i looked back at things. It feels that i am reali neglecting a lot of matters. My old friends, my families, all my love ones. Suddenly i feel so empty, so shallow. So many people is going overseas, so many people is going their own ways. Yes its for their best, but i just miss those days where we could juz sit arnd tokin cock.






Those were the days....


And now we are apart... (I am holdin the camara anyway. Too bad i am not INSIDE!!!)

Thursday, September 11, 2008

Time For relaxation n world of sins...

Well, had a relaxation day ytd and 2day!! lol!! finally i hv sorted out tt i cant be the best of who i am anymore i guess! lol!
Btw in the mornning i had my tennis sessions, aft which i came back to my room and slp. Then me and my friend when to had steamboat dinner.
Then few days ago, we went n had this nice looking ice cream! n i am reali tellin u frankly tt it is a nice looking ice cream n tts all. Actually we had tasted some oth favours, n it actually taste fantasty!! Its juz tt i pick the wrong combination tt day n every taste of it was a torture~ lol...
Back to topic, aft the steamboat dinner, had a nice MJ session n won abt 12 dollars. LOL n thinkin abt money i still remember my chalet 16 dollars.. keke... still hv not taken it back.
Erm, and 2day had skip some lectures to play my tennis again. Then had a nice japanise dinner, and is typing my blog now as i am eating. Had my wonderful cup of coffee wif me rite now.
Finally i feel so much like a human tt reali loves himself. Althou no more singing, no more performing, no more ppl lookin at me. But i am happi tt i can now drink my cup of coffee wif a peaceful mind. Maybe thinkin back abt my sec. sch life as well... lol.. tts is where i started to be hooked by coffee btw. hehe... sweet n sour i guess. i mean the coffee? who noes.

Friday, September 5, 2008

I GIVE UP!!!

I've reached a pt of my life where i reali feel its the end of all possible gd things happening to be now.

Last week there was a ice cream party in my room, and some bad thing tt is reali beyond words happened in my room.

This week, i had a throat infection on monday and i hv to sing on tue. Guess wat, i feel so insulted when i first open my mouth. Nv did i feel so insulted.

After which on wed, my friend asked me for supper and ended up at yishun juz for a gal. And i wasted so much time actually doing low bo stuff.

Thur i went and wash up at 4am in the morning aft finish my study, and guess wat some mother fucker son come into my room and steal my bloody h.p!!!

Fri i went n get my replacement of SIM card at PS, n the person who sign up is actually my mum. N i cant do a fuck thing abt it, and walk off like a 2pid fool.

Now its 9.20pm. Fri, i still had tonns of work where i reali nid to learn. Test on next week, project need to submit in 3 weeks time, lab reports to be submit in 2 weeks time.

Guess i am someone to like to complain? lol. i dun noe to laugh or cry.

Wednesday, August 27, 2008

A tough day everyday~

2day had joined some hall activities. Join kind of too much, i had snooker at first, then badmiton and guess wats next? CHEER LEADING!!

Haha... kind of fun! been too bz with sch work, its like working arnd the clock!! Tml can finally spare sometime with Jude to discuss on my singing or "be a star". Well the semi is on 2nd SPE for me? And i hv no idea wats going to happen next?

Kind of feeling weird now, as in things had been happening so fast now. And i really wish to go into genting. Well, its always the case that when i really wish something can happen, it will go the oth way. Guess it will be diff this time rnd.

Saturday, August 23, 2008

A weird time a weird world.

Salvador Dalí: Disintegration of Persistence


The orginal picture of the clock melting i personall think is the Disintegration of Persistence, by Salvador Dalí which is an spanish.


I'm nt trying to act veri knowledgible, but when i look at things nw. All the stuff tt i do seems like the 2nd picture of melting clock. It seems tt i am living in a life tt i hv lots of time, as there is no ending in a clock. It juz goes rnd n rnd. But this freedom of time is melting away, i can no longer see myself planning any thing else using the "clock".

All the times i used to hv r like fading away. Fading into a veri blury world, a world tt every things seems to melt. Including urself, melting into this world of endless unknown world.
U can see the world n urself melting into this unknown world, but u juz cant help it but see it melt away...

Friday, August 22, 2008

Little bad things can help u gain more stuff...

Cigarette is bad!! veri bad!! it causes ur teeth to be.... So pls dun start, coz sometimes u juz cant help to kiss it one more time. n one more n one more n one more n one....

Monday, August 18, 2008

...

When i c xin guan 3 i reali hv some tears in my eyes. Althou i noe it feels a bit gay, but i do feel something tt reali coz me to feel so touched, and yet feel so bad when i c the performing. This is 1 of them. I hv no idea y, but sometimes i juz dun noe wat to do. Like its 3.40am now, i hv no idea wat i wan to do rite now.

I always tell ppl tt i dun noe wat voice i had, i reali hv no idea. I dun noe who i am when i sing, i dun wat i wan to be when i am singing, i hv no idea wat i am doing when i am singing. I feel so confussed, n i reali hv no time left for me to keep changing and keep learning more.

Sometimes there r 2 things tt r equally good, or there is even more tt u reali hv no idea wat to choose. Wat suits u, wat belongs to u.

I wan to be myself, i always wan to sing a song tt belongs to me. I always wan to sing songs tt has a version of my very own. But rite now, i am lost. I hv no idea hw i shld sound like anymore, i hv no idea wats the meaning of my very own version of song. I hv no idea of everything.