its always a joy thinkin back..

lol.. was laughing all the way thru when i saw this clip again.

Its reali fun!! hw i wish i could go back time and enjoy those moments... But reality is always hash. Time for studies and a long holiday break is waiting for me... eerrmmmm ERH!!

feeling sinful!

This week, i reali gv up in studyin. Too mani n too little tt i understand. Did not touch any of my notes or homework. haha... feeling so sinful. N worst of all exams r comin up!! Juz had supper wif friends n played a game of DOTA. Its reali so fun to reali enjoy fun without thinkin of all the work tt nids to be done. LOL!! I nv feel so free, shld be more hack care abt studies! no pain no stress!! n TONS TONS of FUN!!

VIDEO!!!

Received this video frm my friend, i dare not view till 1 mth later.. LOL!!

cock ups!!

Had a test 2day. but din manage to do it well. feeling reali veri dwn, moody n useless.

Sometimes i juz hate the idea tt i actually lose to an mainland ppl, or an indian. Yes i admin tt i am arrogant. But tts my pride! I dun wan to lose to indians, i dun wan to lose to mainland. I wan to be the best. and i guess i can onli be the worst...

1st test in Uni, 1st A in Uni

Lol. Finally my 1st A for my 1st test. Actually its an A- la. Not reali an A. Update soonz.... Uni is reali tough~

Looking back...

Erm... today was the day my brother going to Reading and study for his masters in finance risk management. Me too wanted to study finance, but i was forced to study engin...

Anyway tt part of my faith had been decided so lets not tok abt it. Well, i was at airport today. And suddenly i realized my thinking, behavior and everthing is so much different when i was 2 yrs ago! Maybe its reali army tt had shaped me into a better person! haha.. But to friends tt had reali noe me well, i am still me afterall.

Sounds confussin? haha.. Let it be then. I am always confussed abt things...

Happy happy n still happy~~

Was peeping thru evelyn's blog and i spot this gd news!! In this issue of Mag "U" there is the write ups on the "be a star"!!

And here is the write up on XAJE and "mo tian lun"!! The feeling of knowing this is reali gre8!! haha.. finally some results can be seen after so long of hardwork. JIA YOU!! Hope that one day all our dreams can turn into reality. In the mean while, time for proj. and studies.

Till one day where all effort our efforts can be crystalized into something that we are all proud of!!!

Toilte in HK

Do you noe tt in HK there will be this device located in the cubical where you can use to clean the seats for your toilte bowl!!

Basically u nid to place a tissue under this device where it will realese a cleaning gel for you to wipe on the seats of the toilte bowl. How thoughtful rite!!

Those were the days...

My birthday bash on 27th Jan 06

Si Chun's birthday bash on 20th May 06

Bryan's birthday bash on 05th Jun 06

But where is my beloved zi jie... Now when i looked back at things. It feels that i am reali neglecting a lot of matters. My old friends, my families, all my love ones. Suddenly i feel so empty, so shallow. So many people is going overseas, so many people is going their own ways. Yes its for their best, but i just miss those days where we could juz sit arnd tokin cock.

Those were the days....

And now we are apart... (I am holdin the camara anyway. Too bad i am not INSIDE!!!)

Time For relaxation n world of sins...

Well, had a relaxation day ytd and 2day!! lol!! finally i hv sorted out tt i cant be the best of who i am anymore i guess! lol!

Btw in the mornning i had my tennis sessions, aft which i came back to my room and slp. Then me and my friend when to had steamboat dinner.

Then few days ago, we went n had this nice looking ice cream! n i am reali tellin u frankly tt it is a nice looking ice cream n tts all. Actually we had tasted some oth favours, n it actually taste fantasty!! Its juz tt i pick the wrong combination tt day n every taste of it was a torture~ lol...

Back to topic, aft the steamboat dinner, had a nice MJ session n won abt 12 dollars. LOL n thinkin abt money i still remember my chalet 16 dollars.. keke... still hv not taken it back.

Erm, and 2day had skip some lectures to play my tennis again. Then had a nice japanise dinner, and is typing my blog now as i am eating. Had my wonderful cup of coffee wif me rite now.

Finally i feel so much like a human tt reali loves himself. Althou no more singing, no more performing, no more ppl lookin at me. But i am happi tt i can now drink my cup of coffee wif a peaceful mind. Maybe thinkin back abt my sec. sch life as well... lol.. tts is where i started to be hooked by coffee btw. hehe... sweet n sour i guess. i mean the coffee? who noes.

I GIVE UP!!!

I've reached a pt of my life where i reali feel its the end of all possible gd things happening to be now.

Last week there was a ice cream party in my room, and some bad thing tt is reali beyond words happened in my room.

This week, i had a throat infection on monday and i hv to sing on tue. Guess wat, i feel so insulted when i first open my mouth. Nv did i feel so insulted.

After which on wed, my friend asked me for supper and ended up at yishun juz for a gal. And i wasted so much time actually doing low bo stuff.

Thur i went and wash up at 4am in the morning aft finish my study, and guess wat some mother fucker son come into my room and steal my bloody h.p!!!

Fri i went n get my replacement of SIM card at PS, n the person who sign up is actually my mum. N i cant do a fuck thing abt it, and walk off like a 2pid fool.

Now its 9.20pm. Fri, i still had tonns of work where i reali nid to learn. Test on next week, project need to submit in 3 weeks time, lab reports to be submit in 2 weeks time.

Guess i am someone to like to complain? lol. i dun noe to laugh or cry.

A tough day everyday~

2day had joined some hall activities. Join kind of too much, i had snooker at first, then badmiton and guess wats next? CHEER LEADING!!

Haha... kind of fun! been too bz with sch work, its like working arnd the clock!! Tml can finally spare sometime with Jude to discuss on my singing or "be a star". Well the semi is on 2nd SPE for me? And i hv no idea wats going to happen next?

Kind of feeling weird now, as in things had been happening so fast now. And i really wish to go into genting. Well, its always the case that when i really wish something can happen, it will go the oth way. Guess it will be diff this time rnd.

A weird time a weird world.

Salvador Dalí: Disintegration of Persistence

The orginal picture of the clock melting i personall think is the Disintegration of Persistence, by Salvador Dalí which is an spanish.

I'm nt trying to act veri knowledgible, but when i look at things nw. All the stuff tt i do seems like the 2nd picture of melting clock. It seems tt i am living in a life tt i hv lots of time, as there is no ending in a clock. It juz goes rnd n rnd. But this freedom of time is melting away, i can no longer see myself planning any thing else using the "clock".

All the times i used to hv r like fading away. Fading into a veri blury world, a world tt every things seems to melt. Including urself, melting into this world of endless unknown world.

U can see the world n urself melting into this unknown world, but u juz cant help it but see it melt away...

Little bad things can help u gain more stuff...

Cigarette is bad!! veri bad!! it causes ur teeth to be.... So pls dun start, coz sometimes u juz cant help to kiss it one more time. n one more n one more n one more n one....

...

When i c xin guan 3 i reali hv some tears in my eyes. Althou i noe it feels a bit gay, but i do feel something tt reali coz me to feel so touched, and yet feel so bad when i c the performing. This is 1 of them. I hv no idea y, but sometimes i juz dun noe wat to do. Like its 3.40am now, i hv no idea wat i wan to do rite now.

I always tell ppl tt i dun noe wat voice i had, i reali hv no idea. I dun noe who i am when i sing, i dun wat i wan to be when i am singing, i hv no idea wat i am doing when i am singing. I feel so confussed, n i reali hv no time left for me to keep changing and keep learning more.

Sometimes there r 2 things tt r equally good, or there is even more tt u reali hv no idea wat to choose. Wat suits u, wat belongs to u.

I wan to be myself, i always wan to sing a song tt belongs to me. I always wan to sing songs tt has a version of my very own. But rite now, i am lost. I hv no idea hw i shld sound like anymore, i hv no idea wats the meaning of my very own version of song. I hv no idea of everything.

My sch = hell + liar

Nv in my life had i studied so much and i still feel so 2pid!!

I am seroius!! In the past i will studied and noe all the things, but now i study all the notes n i still noe nuts!!!

The style is like they teach u 70% on how to work a thing out, but the remaining 30% they DUN TEACH!!! i reali wan to &^%#^*&(() them up!! I PAID SO MUCH N THIS IS THE STANDARD I GET??

Reali damn fusrated!! I nid to think so much to solve something!! Go google, go wikipedia. Then wats the used of me buying so MANY NOTES!! WHEN THE NOTES DUN EVEN HELP!!!!

No onli the place i live in cheats my money, the uni tt i goes in does the samething!! EVERYWHERE I GO PPL ALSO WAN TO CHEAT MONEY!!! CHEATERS!!! LIARS!!!

who am i?

Hv u all ever has this feeling tt u r lost, and u r so mixed up tt u simply hv no idea who u r? or wat u wan to do?

Do u ever qns urself on wat do u reali wan? and how much can u reali make it happen?

R u some1 tt will face reality or live in ur fantasy? Can fantasy reali become reality?

Althou i always do things wif a mentality that things happen for a reason, and u hv to hold on to every reason in ur life, ur stlye, ur very own life of ur very individual. Coz everyone is special in their very own ways.

So what do u think? By thinkin so, r u reali living a life of ur very own? A life of no one pinning hope on u, a life tt no one is looking up on u. A life tt is untainted by anyone, a life tt u r actually for once living for ur ownself. It does sound selfish, but doesn't a individual life belongs to oneself?

If u were to look arnd u, how mani ppl r actually doing things of their dreams, ideas, hopes? Ppl r merely doing things becoz they r being forced by socialty to do so.

Imagine tt we are living in africa do u think we will be going to any shopping malls to buy cloths? Do u think we will be discussing shld we buy nike or addidas? Do u think we will be talking abt soccer, olymics?

Tts is a life of an very individual in my eyes, a life tt is untatinted by socialty, by hopes of millions, tt is a "pure" life.

But once again i am glad tt i hv a PC in my air-con room. Rather then trees and flies arnd me. lol. Life is juz so irony, n we can onli say its hopes of millions tt brings us to who we r now. Hopes of our fore-fathers, hopes of millions of ppl tt hv lost their lifes to protect the small island tt we hv. For all these hopes, and the socialty we shall once again dip our heads into this endless hole...

the light in halls...

I am starting to c some lights by stayin in halls...

Lol... Was sort of fun today, had a soccer match wif the hall ppl and got 2nd place. Haha, old man still can play OK!!

But juz nid to tune in back to my usual life. Still hv some greeness in me, tryin my best to juz forget and for go such a color. YUCKS!! now i noe y i hate ppl believing in green, esp on every day of a week i dun mean i hate tt day but, infact i love tt day! Coz it always represent FUN when u r working. ya i juz hate things tt is associated wif green, including them. PEACE!!

My suggestion, y dun change ur color? Even singapore believe in our color! Red packets any1?

Mixed feelings

I am hving mixed feelings nw. U noe sumtimes when ppl of tt u think is good hv high hopes on u, esply when their r willing to gv in their times and effort juz for u. U will feel so hw too blessed.

But at the same time, u feel weird. As in u will hv stress plus excitments, which is kind of funni sort of feelings. Nw i feel like i am in a grp competition, onli tt i nid to show or perform alone, but its sort of a team effort. Althou things hv nt started yet, but i juz feel tt i am too blessed wif such a gd chance. And i reali dun think tt i shld deserve it, coz nv in life had i had such a gd deal happen.

Mixed up + stress + lost + confuss is nt goin to get me anywhere. I juz nid time to sort out issues.

Rite nw, my 5 yrs plan had to make some changes, n this is nt wat i had in mind. All the best Chun An.

journey to the center of the earth

Thumbs up and tons of laughter!!

Reali had a good laught, infact its my 1st laughter this week. Its such a nice thing to reali relax and had a good laught. keke~~ like this feeling.. Go and catch this movie and relax ur mind, let ur imagination run wild wif this cute and fairy tale like comedy!!

Suddenly i think of "Y SO SERIOUS?"