feeling the kicks...

Had been doing discrete maths for 4hrs a day for abt a week, and still i'm at chap3. Feeling so stupid nowadays...

its like in the past, I could simply understand maths within a few hours, but nowadays i need a few days or even a few weeks to understand maths... I seriously feel so depressed about it.

Everyday when i woke up, i know i have to study, and yet i dun feel like. I got so many things that I want to say it out but i know i need to keep it deep down in me. Why do we human needs to be so intellect? Knowing the logic or the reason of how to be successful and sacrifice the happy moments in our lifes. Life is such a irony... its juz like roses where all the outsiders would only see how wonderful our life is, but not knowing beneath the beauty of the roses are years and years of torturing torns that had been drilled into our very core steams of each of the roses...

life is reali a messed

I am so damn freaking frastrated at how things are, they are all simply obsticals that you have to cross! Cant things be enjoying a bit? fun a bit and less torturing? this is world!! nt a living hell!! so damn pissed!!

2 faces...

Are you a 2 face person? Sometimes I am in such a dilemma, like how should I react to certain situation? Did I handle this matter correctly? Should I do it morally correct? or should I do it the way I want it or like it?


There are so many choices in life, and each decision you made will conclude what type of person you are. This is what I believe in, but there are so many times that I just wanting to do things the way I would want or like to! Just like a kid that has the freedom to show their expression and their behaviour. Isn't it so nice to be just a kid...