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well well, i was actually thinking thru this weekend what am I reali fit to be in my own future. And i cant get a ans!

1st i dun wan to study, but i hv to due to the naSion that i in.
2nd i dun wan to take up an I.T. course, but my dip can onli get me into I.T

Actually i am sort of happy to be able to get enroll into NTU, as compare to oths who seriously wants to get it but cant. But, on the oth end i juz wan to get a better piece of me frm the system that i am being provided with. Its sort of complicating as i dun understand the system and i simply hate it.

Why is all the uni being made to suit the JC ppl? Yes i am crying over some small matter, and i noe it. But its juz feel unfair in some ways. But no hard feeling to JC guys, coz i noe they hv gave in lots n lots of effort for their 'A's. Erm... I juz wan to do things the way i wan to. But i cant...

What a weekend!!

Haha... my weekend was a long and tiring 1... I had to run to east point and sing!! lol... to be freak, it reali scare the living shit out of me!! Nv did i realised that i am so small, so useless.

Reali!! I was singing there, and i cant do a single thing to help meself out of problem except to sing properly. I feel veri helpless, so weak. I reali hv nth to do but to sing out on the stage. I cant control the loudness, i cant control the crowd i cant do a single shit thing i wan!!

So aft my 1st bad bad bad experiance, i decided to make some changes, and guess what, i cock up again!! lol... It was reali damn shitty, but fun!!

It was the 1st time i feel so BRIGHT!! i had everyones eyes in a shopping mall!! how cool can tt be?? lol... it was reali reali fun!!

But now i hv to get back to my green life, and be a bastard!! I simply hate being green. I HATE GREEN!!