happi Bday to me....

Well, ytd was my Bday, and i spend it with my friends in the aftnoon. And went for some audition at nite, aft tt i join my another friend for my lovely mid nite atmosphere wif.

Its kind of sad for my Bday this yr, as i was expectin presents from everyone. But it seems that no1 reali borther to get me any. Althou i always say time is more impt then presents the last few yrs, but i reali wish that i hv presents this yr. I hv no idea y, but its juz that compare to last yr, i feel so empty. No atmosphere that i am hving my bday. Its like there is almost no presents for me to see that its for me.

Maybe i'm hvin too much high hopes i think. Things are better left it as it is. Tt is something i always believe in. Nv go and do something tt is bigger then you, nv think you r tt special 1. Haha, i feel so emo as well as so shallow to yearn for presents. But anyway, i had a gd time this rnd. A lot of new friends, new experiance as well. The Bday surprise celebration at ms, the outin wif my friends, the wonderful calls, smses by all sort of my dears lol!! Feel so good to hv gals arnd!! BUT I WAN PRESENT!! NXT YR MUST GET ME ONE!!! FOR THOSE WHO C THIS POST

why is it so hard?

Some people can simply just speak out their minds, but why can't i? is it coz wat i'm being trained into? being able to think and act accordingly? why do i always act so accordingly?? i simply dun get it!! i wan to do some things but its just that i can't!! i can't do things that are "not rite", i feel so screwed u noe!! Everything i look back at wats happenin, i regret by being a Mr. Good Dude!! The better person u r, the more u will lose out in many ways. Although i do agreed that bein good is hard, and its a rare virtual, but sometimes it's juz hurts you in a way or another. I realli dun noe y am i feelin so bad for being good, but sometimes i juz feel like doing likewise. I dun wan to be who i am now, wat my rank is, wat i surpose to behave, wat i shld do, hw i shld lead, hw i shld decipline, hw shld i do this and that.

I dun noe y!! There is simply no one that is controlling me at all, but its juz that i always tell myself i nid to be this and that, and i am reali sick of it!! I JUZ WAN TO BE SIMPLE!! I WAN A SIMPLE LIFE A VERY SIMPLE ONE!!!

Sista Sista...

2day i asked sista why she dun jio me out de, then it ended up that i "put her airplane", and her tone was like angry.

sista dun be angry can? I mean if i go out i will onli be spendin a few hrs outside onli rite? since i nid to come hm to slp for my wk?

aniwae, 2day i juz find out that this song is veri nice!! 听,我爱你 by 李圣杰 If any1 that is free pls go youtube and listen to this song!!

sista xiao yi xia mah!!

A milk curd a day, keeps my happiness a wake!!

So funni 2day!! I was watching the huang xin lu at 9pm+ when my neighbour smsed me u wan bean curd? then i tot that maybe she trying to be nice, so i told her 1 will make me veri happi. And guessed wat!! its 11.50 and i had a mango milk curd in my room!! lol... Was kind of happi that i actually had a milk curd delivered to my house for FREE!! keke!!

Reali make my day end with a sweet milk curd smile :)

Which course to CHOOSE!!!

Well... Recently i've try and look up for Uni courses again!! And it seems that the more i look up, the more uncertian i am for wat i wld wan to study!! COOL RITE!!!

Normally the more u reseach on, the clearer ur idea will be. But for me its different!! The more i reseach on, the blurer i get!! HOOOOOOOO!! And rite now i am reali confussed, totally CONFUSSED!!

Cant wait to get my pinky!!

its been abt 1yr and 3mths+ since i left pinky... Back then, on the day we were seperated, we had this sort of agreedment that we will be back togather 2 yrs later..

Now to me its like 9 more mths before we can finally be back togather, but its still so far away. Thinking abt it, its reali a greate complishment that i had been thru 1yr and 3mths le... Even thou 9 mths are shorter then the 1yr 3mths that i hv been thru, i simply feel that his 9 mths seems like 9 yrs!! its like so far away!!

And everyday i am thinkin abt pinky!! I reali wish that i could hold it onto my hand and feel its existence!! I wan to hv that feeling that I AM HOLDING ON TO U!!! u noe, nt those that imagination sort of feelings? Pinky Pinky, i am reali missin u rite now!!

packed packed packed!!

Well, its been the 2nd week of 2008, and seriosuly i am half dead!! My schedule is so freaking packed!!

Aft work go drive, if nt go settle my bills, if nt go settle my computer issues? And the worst is there is more and more stupid things being thrown to me by some angry fuckers!! Who gets more pay, and do lesser then me. My life is reali damn pissed off rite at the moment.

My driving sux, as i am too tired and i still get reprimanted coz i am tired?

My life is also kind of confussing thou. I used to know what i wan and dun reali mind ppl's view and opinion. But it seems that there are certain ppl's view that will reali affect me rite now.i am reali confussed abt that sort of feeling. Is like i have been myself for years and suddenly contradicing ideas had suddenly been erupt arnd me. And this bombardment of conflicts is reali too much to handle. I feel like i am changing, and i dun feel gd abt it.

Not that i am stating changing is bad, but in terms of actions and normal behavior i will have this devil and angel thoughts or argument within me. I feel so indecisive rite now, and hv no idea wat i am reali doin at the moment!!

Time will help i guess. But i reali wish that i can get back that self control over myself sooner or later...

nth much to do...

Well... I've woke up and ever since then i cant seem to be able to go back slpin... Maybe i'm juz hving tots of wats happening? Maybe not? lol!! But things kind of change arnd me thou!

Last time or ever since aft sec., i was having this particular tot that no matter wat happen, i am myself! and i will not get affected by others.

Y i hv such a tot? well, maybe coz of those unpleasent events from careing ppl too much bah... So y care and get urself in so mani shit?

Haha, guess a leopard nv changes its spot yo!! no matter wat, i will c hw it goes bah... Hopefully things wun happen like how it does in the past...

So... BE SAFE!!!

yo!! finally blogging again

why do i blog again? i hv no idea y, but i wanted to start all over again. LOL... well its been about 5 mths or even 8 mths since i last blog. Reasons why i stop? coz i am too bz with my "green life"!!

Anyway, things had been goin pretty smooth, and i had tonnes of time to blog slowly and of cuz enjoying my life!! While think i will start by doing up some nice skins, or templates for what oth ppl would like to call it. Erm... Well juz sit back and enjoy :)