Thursday, November 19, 2009
focus!!
Incoming Incoming!! Exams in 1 more week.
Still I can't focus on my studies. I tried ways and method to detach myself from problems and troubles but they simply come right back to me! Ironic is what life is all about. I told people not to tell me about stuff, and yet they purposely tell you right at the moment that you though you can focus on your studies.
I am really confused, am I angry with people disrupting my studies or am i too deep in the shit?
Thursday, November 19, 2009
The real feelings needs to be touched and felt.
Someone asked me, nan are you ok? Your nick seems emotional.
Well, at the moment I told her that I'm just trying to be emotional, so its ok. But right now having to think about it, it really makes me realized something. If you had never been into a hole, would you understand or feel that sort of feelings? Like the deep well that you see above, do you know how it look like deep down there? You will never and ever get the answer till you have reached the real end of the story i guessed.
Thursday, November 19, 2009
Wednesday, November 18, 2009
seeds to flower
Its really funny in life that we never think that somethings would happen, and we assume that it would not have any effect on you.
But as time passes by, its like a seed that grows in your heart, it does not but gets on growing within you. Even if you wished to pluck it out at that instance it simply wouldn't allow you to, as it had been rooted to your inner self without you realizing it. Its until the very moment that you could felt the pain of the flower's root growing deeper and deeper into you till it hits where it hurts the most, where the razor sharp pain actually woke you up in your day dream. That you realized all along you have been missing all those precious moments.
If you would be given a choice to choose any letter to represent you, what would it be? I would never and ever choose the letter 'O'. Whats yours??
Wednesday, November 18, 2009
Friday, October 2, 2009
feeling totallt like a loser!!
HATE MUGGIN! PERIOD
Friday, October 02, 2009
Thursday, September 17, 2009
feeling the kicks...
Had been doing discrete maths for 4hrs a day for abt a week, and still i'm at chap3. Feeling so stupid nowadays...
its like in the past, I could simply understand maths within a few hours, but nowadays i need a few days or even a few weeks to understand maths... I seriously feel so depressed about it.
Everyday when i woke up, i know i have to study, and yet i dun feel like. I got so many things that I want to say it out but i know i need to keep it deep down in me. Why do we human needs to be so intellect? Knowing the logic or the reason of how to be successful and sacrifice the happy moments in our lifes. Life is such a irony... its juz like roses where all the outsiders would only see how wonderful our life is, but not knowing beneath the beauty of the roses are years and years of torturing torns that had been drilled into our very core steams of each of the roses...
Thursday, September 17, 2009
Sunday, September 13, 2009
life is reali a messed
I am so damn freaking frastrated at how things are, they are all simply obsticals that you have to cross! Cant things be enjoying a bit? fun a bit and less torturing? this is world!! nt a living hell!! so damn pissed!!
Sunday, September 13, 2009
Friday, September 4, 2009
2 faces...
Are you a 2 face person? Sometimes I am in such a dilemma, like how should I react to certain situation? Did I handle this matter correctly? Should I do it morally correct? or should I do it the way I want it or like it?
There are so many choices in life, and each decision you made will conclude what type of person you are. This is what I believe in, but there are so many times that I just wanting to do things the way I would want or like to! Just like a kid that has the freedom to show their expression and their behaviour. Isn't it so nice to be just a kid...
Thursday, August 20, 2009
u can bring the cow to the water, but its the cow that decides whether to drink or not
Sometimes I do wonder, why do some cow, when you bring them to the water, they still doesn't wish to drink it? Especially when the cow is thirsty!
Recently, I do also realize that what a stupid cow am I was for the past few years of my life. And due to this cow, I realized to be more cautious about my own choice of word and body language.
Till now, I'm still wondering why the cow does such a thing. Is it because that the cow is not sensitive enough? Or is it what the people used to say that the cow skin is simply too thick?
So far, I do admin that I dislike the cow. But still I'm trying to lead the cow to the water, reason being, I used to be a cow too. And I feel that I am a cow now as well! But I'm trying real hard to change the fact.
But currently, this cow seems like it’s showing me some syndromes that it wants to retaliate, despite the effort that all of us had been trying to bring the cow to the water. The reason why am I blogging this, is that I'm wondering should I simply ignore this cow? Erm... maybe I should just play xi nu nia (wash milk) game, at least it had more entertaining value.
Thursday, August 20, 2009
Are you a 2 face person? Sometimes I am in such a dilemma, like how should I react to certain situation? Did I handle this matter correctly? Should I do it morally correct? or should I do it the way I want it or like it?