Sick sick mi...

well... i have been att. C for 2 days, n guess wat my fever is not getting any better n i still hv to book in... this is life u noe.. no choice sux thumb... lol... i dun reali hate army, but is some rules and regulations tt i dislike... army make u fit n i nid to thx them for it... its kind of sad for ppl to step in to keep u fit u noe... coz ur body belongs to u!! n u nid some1 else to help u keep it fit wat logic is tt!! haha...

On top of all i still get paid!! nt bad le lah... is all abt the mind tt makes ppl strong or weak... is also all abt the mind tt u take ur experiance a enjoying or torturing 1... u hv to believe in something so at least it means something... else u will be following blinding like a blur cock!! which i nv wan to be 1... so guess wat... something u hv to keep it to urself... n i hv to!! :) life is simple gd enuff till now...

army life

it seems like i was enlisted ytd, but i actually had been enlisted for 1mth ++. Life seems to be interesting i say, i feel gd abt it and feel that i am much fitter now.. the onli negertive things abt there is no matter how smart or how 2pid u r, u must take order frm the ppl tt hv higher rank then u...

Its so meaningless, but wat can u do? lol... life is wat it is... so let it be... if only i am the 1 wif higher rank, if only i am the one who can control things... if only... tts all i can say....

it actually made mi realised something, which i am glad that i can understand it. In the past, i used to believe tt the smarter ppl are the one controlling ppl. But now is no the matter of how smart u r, but how much authority u had. And this is wat is happening to our daily life, do u think tt all bosses are smart? as long as u own a company u can control ur men, as long as u hv the authority the rites u can control ppl!! so u don't hv to be smart, u juz nid to gain the access or the way to be some1 to hv authority in order to be some1 at a manager lvl...

Life is so sad, juz when i tot tt the smarter u r, the better u can live ur life such things happen... n i nid to re-evaluate my own mind set... Smarter as in knowledgable can onli aid u in being a success person but not a need in order to be one... SAD

my TP is tml...

how shld i express myself now? my TP is tml i still i'm afraid tt i wld mount tt fuckin kerb which means i am can officially go home rite away!! wtf is this man, immediate failure? ccb i pay 200 bucks for 2min of mountin the kerb? 2 min = 200 bucks gd deal huh? ccb!! as if i wan to mount tt cb kerb... kind of sad aft noein tt some of my friends actually hv immediate failure, waste money like no ppl's biz like tt... imagine i hv a job tt i can earn 200 bucks in 2 mins frm some cum gong driver nt bad wor!! actual process may take abt 2hr++ like 1 hr = 80 but now i can earn 200 in 2 min swee swee hor!! some more can go lim kopi or teh or even go gayland yam char!! wat a gd life it wld be!! btw 200 is actually paid seperatly, 100 for fuckin instructor n 100 for a tester tt i nid to por be4 the test can actually go on... power rite tt fuckin tester juz sit next to mi for abt 1hr + can get 100 liao, song song sial... some more if c mi nt happi juz add few more ticks till i fail onli, and if i argu wif him? he can happi bo chaup and walk away wif my 100 bucks wif it... haiz... life is so fuck up, as long as u the one tt holds higher authority, ur life is like heaven. If u happens to be the one tt holds no authority at all? then u nid to c if u hv the look to impress, if still u dun hv it? u can onli lay down somewhere n wait to be slaughtered...

heart ach

i hv no idea y am i hvin this heart ach even thou i hv no gal tt i like rite now!! i dun noe y is it happenin?? maybe is friendster bah... was searchin thru friendster n soon my heart achs... pls dun think in the dirty manner!! i was actually lookin at all my friends profile 1 by 1 n realized how much or how long we last met. was so sad!!

be4 tt i was actually chattin wif tony, n he was sayin abt his stories tt it get linked to des! lol... then i hv this urge to look at all my friends!! to noe hows their life is by lookin thru the pics!! dun noe whethere is it pervert to u? but i reali feel kind of gd by updatin myself "auto" on their daily pics!! although i dun reali tok to them, or i dun noe how to interact wif them bah, but i still hv a heart tt i care for them all u noe?

its wrong to do tt, its wrong to do this

FUCK U!! its nv wrong to do anything!! the onli thing tt is wrong when oth ppl comment tt u r wrong is the PERSON!! who hv the rite to comment oths? who hv the rite to take ur rites away? bein a human u nid to stand tall on ur ideas, ur dreams. If u dun stand for it then there is nth more i can say...

In the past i hv always stand up for everything tt i think is rite, no matter wat comment i gt i still do it. cos i noe tt in this world the onli 1 tt can change my bloodly hell fate is myself!! due to tt i am bein categorized as "arrogant"

Then few yrs passed n i hv changed to be a passive person, yet again ppl comment tt i am bein too passive tts y u cant get wat u "shld" hv!! wat a joke!!

So now no matter rite or nt, the onli 1 tt passes down tt fuckin judgment in my acts is me and ONLI ME!! advise r suppose to be taken nt to be acted on get it? u make ur fate, u make ur ACTION!!

my beloved instructor!! :)

2day in the noon i was hvin a nap aft my drivin, the fuckin instructor always like to adjust the car's air con to blow it on my fuckin face!! and i had to readjust the air con onli when i feel the cold!! as u noe, when u enter the car in the 1st place, u r warm and u wun realised where the air con is blowin. N by the time i realized i am hvin a cold, its too late liao!! cos i am FUCKIN SICK LE!!

So aft the lesson, i went home straight. No i went n "ta bao" my food then went home. Aft my meal i went to bed rite away!! i was so damn sick lo!! i cant even open my eyes without those tears!! u noe when u r sick ur eyes will be so "tear-ly"

Waste my whole fuckin friday on a drivin lesson!! knn!! made mi cancel my plans... haiz... i am so weak now!!! juz the air con blowin on my nose i can get sick!! worst is my face is FUCKIN DRY too!! knn!! my face = my life!! i wasted how much $$ on my face u noe? 500++ and is still goin up!! n u wan to blow till my face got dry?? __ u!!!

sian sian sian!!

goin NS soon... n there is no gd job for a man like mi, tt can onli work for few weeks!! so sad... i can onli stay at home n slack slack slack and still SLACK!!! I AM SO BORE!!!

so times, life is so funni...

i was lookin at my previous blogs, n guess wat, i alreadi think i was so ugly in the past!! i mean its onli 2 mths n now i think i look much better!! lol maybe is "i think" tts y. LOL!! well, recently i think i hv been fallin in love, fallin in love wif myself! keke... everytime i look into the mirror i wld tok to myself " WOW u hv changed into a better lookin person" but guess wat, i reali wish i can change into a better person as in the whole person. No matter is it in the mind set, behavior or within my inner soul, as long i can be a better person i will try n do it.

Reason? becuase i noe tt this world is a world where mother nature takes its role. Meanin its the survival of the fittest!! so i hv to prepare myself for the future, who noes wat will come to me? so i hv to prepare to be a better person so tt i can handle myself thru all sort of matters. no matter is it relationship, work or even studies.

Maybe is due to my failure in the past tt i reali hv this mind set of "I MUST NOT FAIL THE NEXT TIME" so inorder to meet tt kind of standard tt i wan i must learn and I MUST

how times flies...

its reali funni to c how time flies, and also interestin to c the past of myself in the photos. It is so fasinatin to actually noe how much u hv growed or matured in terms of behavior, dressin, and mind set. How funni is it to c the ugly u, and how u wld react by sayin to urself is tt reali me? omg i look so horrible!!! lol... its reali tt damn interestin, maybe all of us shld be more active in takin photos every now and then, and hv thoes memories for us to remember or remesi abt

Juz a 2pid pic

Well its cini's pic here... lol was v bore back then, and when i take a look at the ticketin counter i kind of like the view u noe. Its like wat u c in the movie, not the crowded scenes of coz, btw i hate crowded places. Anyway it reali look interestin at, the whole view of it, so i took down this pic and there it is... lol!! nice rite? the way its taken!! haha reali like the whole feeling of the pic.

There is ppl discussin wat to c, couples lookin at time slots, ppl crowdin at the ticketin counter for sits... althou its nt v pack, but everything related to buying a tix is all there!!

new chapter IT MUST

haha this is my new hair cut!! lol short but nt reali short wat a hair!! lol erm... actually this picture is blur tts y i used it!! @#!@# it juz happen to be blur when i reali wan it to be clear... so sad... hopes this new hair brin mi a new chapter in my life, i reali hope to break free frm my past n reali move on in life!! i've reali stuck in a mud for more then 1/4 of my life abt 6 yrs? its time for mi to move on n i hope i can and i WILL!! try to move on :(

there is times tt u reali wan to move on but it juz happened tt there is something pullin u back... :(

HP missin!!

OMG!! my HP is gone!! n all my contacts r gone!! n all my pics!!! OMG!!! how unlucky can a person get... !!!!!!!!!!!11(*&^%$#^&*(+_&*(^%$#@%^&*()_

smart ppls...

Do u all realized tt most mcDonals outlet now hv live FEEDS of soccer matches? smart rite... when they 1st installed the plasma TV i was wonderin, y would they put a fuckin TV there? but now, i must say THEY R SMART!! n they installed it like 6mths eariler? arnd there bah... smart man... no wonder they are the fast food outlet tt is earnin the most!! look at KFC or BK hv they ever tot abt it? i think it would take abt 1week to hv the plasma TV cost being returned!! McDonalds I SIMPLY REPECT U!!!

The musketeer

haha... actually it will be v lame tt i can make up any story frm this pic u noe!! haha...

well acutally i was at my friend's store and i saw this head dress, and i went OMG!!! i must try this I MUST!! so i went n took it and wear it and took a pic wif it TOO!! haha... n this is how it all happens... lol!! had a v fun nite there... was dressin myself up wif everything i can find!! lol... i feel like i am like a woman for a while, BUT who cares!! there is no1 there but my friends, n i simply dun gv a damn back then!! so i tried one piece aft another!! haha... reali had a fun day!! TY CINDY!!!

P-in is such a great sensation

the fountain of P, doesnt it makes u feel kimochi? haha look at their facial expression!! i definately feel great lookin at them... this is how life shld be!! relax urself like them... btw 1 qustion be4 i go to slp... n tt is r they male or female? i hv no idea... but it looks like a female to mi!! keke!! if u noe wat i am tryin to say... keke!!

Things tt i wanted

it is so funni that some times when u reali look back at it u will find it amusing, i still remember in the past where i reali love or like this gal i would give in every single thing i hv juz for her. but lookin at it now, is kind of sweet but yet native of me.

To mi, i no longer wish to hv all the things tt i used to dream abt. insteat i even dislike some of it, so some times i would gv a serious tot abt it, y there is things tt i fought so hard for and yet dislike it? kind of contradict rite!! but the purpose or the reason y i am writtin all these is to make sure tt i will not spent so much time on such things, and most importantly tt i will not get hurt by all these 2pid things tt i fought so hard for. it seems like i am actually diggin a hole for mi to jump into it!! i am simply so 2pid n so native

saddness is bonded in my life...

Well, its kind of irony for mi to say this... but on monday 5th Jun it was my friends Bday and we were hvin chalet. During the nite time, my secondary sch mate came to wish my friend Bday, and the irony part came from here. When they were on their way to the chalet, i was at the chalet at tt point of time, and i seriously wish to c them and at least hv a nice chat wif them. But the problem came immediately when they reached the chalet, wat i can do is simply greet them and the atmosphere chages to frezzin pt instantly. I can make a topic out of them, and they also assume i am made of glasses... To me i feel extremely bad, as i hv tried to make myself "approachable" and they make mi into a "clown" but i dun mind all these, wat i mind is tt i noe tt we cant be able to be friends like we used to be... our life had changed, and it seems like ppl always like to stone themselves or in another word to isolate themseleves in 1 corner as if they r the only one tt is so lonely and so depressed... i am nt complainin stuff but i am thinkin all these in my mind... y it had happen? y??? i cant find a reason n i dun wish to think abt it, cos i had did all i can to tok and i juz look like a clown in the end.. i guess if some1 doesnt wan any help there is no way u could help them... be it or leave it maybe...

NICE SUIT, bad model...

I simply love this suit!! but its a pity tt i din reali buy it... reason? its hard to get a nice pair of shoe and a decent pants to match wif it... omg!! cos in s'pore u reali cant get a gd shop tt simply sells stuff tt u wan!! maybe it is mi, tt is so lazy to find one bah... but no worries... i will still continue my hunt for a better me of cuz appearance wize... cos i personally think tt my character sux till the core... i am still learnin but i always feel so disappointed wif myself in my behavior... i can never be a "correct" person or a "much better" man in life... i simply sux...

my 3rd blog...

well... the reason for mi startin blog again n again is cuz i ALWAYS FORGET MY USERNAME!! n i hv been tryin for like 30min, then i realized I wld nv be able to recall wat it was and started this blog again... Another reason was my fuckin laptop went die AGAIN!! n most imptly, i hv nth to do now... wif no more studyin, no more job and waiting for my day to come, i decide y dun i hv a blog again... n at least hopefully sum1 will come n read this... erm... tts all rite now i guess... Guess wat life is always a road of learning tt nv ends... u simply had to learn every single bit of stuff... relations to studies even to an extend tt u hv to learn the walk to EAT N SLP!! this is so crap...