Dreams are renewable. No matter what our age or condition, there are still untapped possibilities within us and new beauty waiting to be born.

-Dale Turner-

Tuesday, March 31, 2009

hopeless helpless..

guess that mostly everyone hv tasted the hopeless helpless feelings in their lives. But this time round, i feel it with a topping of restless.

Simply, everyday u work like a horse, or a dog. Trying to get as much things into ur head, tt seems so slow nowadays. To a point that u can actually feel the vain poping out. N yet u still dun understand a single thing. Sometimes the elder do say that u need to try and strave to be better. But i guess when u r in an environment where everyone simply standing on top of u, n stepping u down like a stone. U simply dun wish to be any more better, as u simply will become a better stepping stone n period.

Day by day passes, n the things i loved, i like doing r all leaving me further n further away. Ironic, things tt i detest are inching their way nearer to me. Day by day passes, and i can c the clock ticking, n this clock had a label called armagadon. tick tick tick....

Sunday, March 22, 2009

Singout 09

Hv u all heard of this event? this great, fantastic event is being held by my most beloved music sch called Music Story, on top of it. This yrs organizing party are made up of the most talented and hardworking crew that i hv ever knew! do catch a glimse of such wonderful event. its like a eclipse where some ppl could onli get to c it once in a LIFETIME!!

Monday, March 16, 2009

confussed and confussed...

Recently i hv mixed emotion. so mixed up that i simply dun noe what i'm so messed up. I dun noe what i'm thinking, i'm feeling. When i sit down i feel y am i sitting down, when i took a bus as usual i will wonder y am i in this bus? when i buy some food and eat, i will wonder y do i get this food? shld i eat it now? or keep it later? i hv no judgement at all, i cant make anymore decisions, i feel weak, i feel simply confussed.

Sunday, March 8, 2009

tennis 3mths ago...

This is my hall tennis team!! haha... reali had a fun time tgt. Hope times can juz stop.

Thursday, February 26, 2009

calculator week = cocker-na-den week




Look up there. This is how ur calculator shld look like inside. i spend around 124hrs thinking how to do it. This sch is simply sick!! Rite now, i grave for outings, grave for toking cock, grave for walking in the streets, grave for fun. :(

Still aft spending so much time, my calculator is still not complete. But i simply gv up this calculator for the time being. Now i need to go back to study my other modules. lol!! sch is simply sick. How i wish i can be a person who simply dun care abt studies, who can skip sch n skip all the works. Y am i always tt guy tt hate to lose? hate to admin tt i am 2pid.

N guess by the hate for being stupid juz made me stupid, and made me a geek. LOL. but i do love being a geek!! GEEK = gd person. no lust for money, no lust for power, no lust but knowledge. GEEKY = GOOD. tts y its all starting wif 'G'. G-man. GeekyMan...

Wednesday, February 18, 2009

random

well, its another insomnia nite. So i decide to blog. N this fellow here is me! Its a very random pic that i took and wanted to put as my DP. but guess my nose is too big currently. So decided not to. LOL. Tts all. Juz being random

Monday, February 9, 2009

Nan's study table DISCLOSED


I missed my dear table at home. My coffee is always free, my air-con is always ready, my ultra-man will always encourage me. lol! sounds gay uh~ but wif a mind tt u simply hate study, tt 2pid ultra-man will suddenly transformed into an angle tt encourages u to study. espcially when exams are near. Last but no least, my kinky red spec!! bought it for so long, but nv wear it out be4. lol. no guts to do tt, guess next party i will be goin there n be Mr. Kinky~

Well, last week was a torture as i need to hand in projects. This week too is another project hell week. N guess wat, by the time i realized tt i've finish my project, i hv no idea wats my lecture note is telling me!

Monday, January 26, 2009

hard disk crash. memories lost.

this new yr reali means alot of me. I vowed aft my army i will be a changed man, i vowed to be a careing person. I dun wish to see any more tears being shed so helplessly. And somehow recently my hard disk crashed, with all my memories being sorted inside. Is it telling me its reali time to let go? and be free?


To be frank, i feel like a cold blooded animal ever since army. I cant feel wats called emotion anymore. In my dictionary there is nothing called fear, sad, emo, ect...
there is only words like eat, slp, study, play, ect...


Its kind of weird, but things do happen. Something i juz feel that we feelings arise becuz we think too much. Juz like if u like a person tell her. wld tt solve ur problem of emo?

If cant, is it becoz u think too much possibility that somehow somewhere she will like u back?.Or maybe one day magical things juz happen and she will like u back?

Time is now my enermy, time at the same time its my dearest friend. I cant waste any of my dearest friend anymore, n i hv to treasure them. If i were to tell time that i hate u, coz u waste my life for the past 22yrs. Does it mean that i hv to fight back for wat i've lost? n be tt someone i wished to be? I simply juz wan to be free, n be myself. I love freedom, n i hope freedom loves me.

Saturday, January 24, 2009

Geting older.

Erm, this yr is kind of a surprise for me. Coz i'm getting 1 yr older rite on CYN day!!

So there will be thousand and thousands of ppl counting down my bday this yr. Remember to see the TV!! n count down my bday tgt!! lol~

Wednesday, January 7, 2009

Batam 2008

Its 7 days into the year 2009, and i am juz free to upload my Batam 2008 trip pics. LOL!

Actually i kind of like 2008. Its a yr tt i reali made a lot of new friends. New weird friends like naggy evelyn tt keep saying i'm naggy. Joyce tt is always like a big sister even thou she is younger than me. Chris that i reali learn a lot, learn how to communicate better. To be frank i'm someone tt reali dun noe hw to speak my mind, and it always end up me leaving impression that i am actually planning to do other things. If u dun get it? Its ok. LOL!


New friends like tony, jeremy, jasmint, jamie, leon, calvina, NELSON!!- "auto MJ kia" and reali a lot a lot more. Reali brings me back to my younger days. Where money is nt a problem, and no one is back stabling you. LOVE the time.


Ok! now back to batam pic. Pls enjoy~!


Enjoying the donut?


ITs like.... NICE!!



A&W breakfast! Can u hv 1 nw?






Nice view uh? including me


Sweet living hut!!








Batam 08 crew member





I LOVE WAKE BOARDING!!! >.<

Naruto thinking what to do....

YA!!!!!!!! sumon frog JISU!! WOO!!
1 FROG appear!!


It was a fun time in batam. Hope can go back again n do wake board. hope yr 2009 will be a gd yr for all of us.


Tuesday, December 9, 2008

A day in NTU

Well it seems tt i am hving holiday n its reali nth to do.

So i decided to post one of the videos i taken during lessons. LOL!!

Pls dun get the wrong idea tt i am so hardworkin tts y i take down the video. It becoz the words tt they r teaching in r nt for locals. So i nid to video it dwn n understand it. DAMN even i noe chinese its useless. I shld hv take up tamil as well!

Monday, December 8, 2008

i look so GAY!!

haha... r u wondering wat i had done to my hair?? lol.. actually i went n dye it last week.


But onli manage to post it now. Was so damn gay la, sitting there like a tai tai.


Makes me feel like a girl!


The worst thing, the color of my dye is NOT WAT I WANT!!


Now i look like a golden lion, n feel like a girl, n been a fool sitting on a chair for HRS!!


I HATE GAYS PERIOD


Thursday, November 20, 2008

this world is crazy!

In the past, everything hv a purpose on earth. For survival.



Now everthing on earths is for money! YES MONEY! They can simply do anything for MONEY! Look at sars, where chicken is killing people. Yet people r so native to believe that it is generic problem that new disese like sars that is causing this plauge. FYI, it all started because farmer wants to cut cost on feeding the chicken, tts when they uses dead animals left overs and mixed it with seeds to feed the chicken. Tts y the chicken is sick.



In order to produce eggs, sick chicken are being kept tgt, and thus the illness is spread. Once the chicken is dead, they sell their DEAD body for money.



Same for mad cow, sick cow that "cant walk" are being sold to slaughter house to be processed into the mad cow meat that we consume.



Now the milk, do u noe wat happen? In china, milk are being categorized into grades. The one with more protine are in the higher grade. So what do the smart alex, go n add in "caramai" which is a substance that u used to produce plastic spoons into it. So that a higher proteint milk can be produced, and a higher cost can be sold.



So aft all these, do u noe who is tt damn asshole that is casusing all these problem? MONEY MONEY MONEY!! That greedy face, tt ugle and disgusting and filty shit MONEY is the cause!!



But wat can i do? Simply tell ppl tt i hate money and then gv it away? N wat will be the result of tt? me being a begger and no one simply gv a damn abt me who cares so much for them?



Now i noe the problem n i cant solve it? Am i 2pid? Can u solve it? Ppl do things to earn more this is the simple logic. I cant blame them, but if there is no money do u think ppl will work so hard then? What world am i living in? What believe do i hold? its all meaningless now, if i hv my pride, my honour, my duty, i will be a begger rite at this moment that i am saying. N this blog wun be seen.



But rite nw i am sitting comfortably in my room, enjoying musice, aircon n my hot cup of coffee all due to money. So am i a filty shit asshole? Do u noe where our money is used for exchanged in our comfortable socialty? Ppl in afraica now is farming for the sack of eating 1 grain of rice, n wat did i do in the exchange of hving such a gd life? Stoning while i am working? act blur and avoiding all the arrows in my office?



Can u c a world like this aft a hundred yr? I can onli c chaos and madness being roamed arnd the whole world.

Sunday, November 16, 2008

Found the pic tt i wan


Anyone knows any place where i can print an picture onto the shirt?

Wednesday, November 12, 2008

count dwn to D-day

Studied days - 14days
module studied - 2
knowledge level - 0
exam day - 22hrs later
I AM GOIN CRAZY!!!
WHY UNI THINGS CANT UNDERSTAND ONE!!!!!!!!!!!!

Friday, November 7, 2008

55 marks..

got a 55 for my econs. was so shock when i got back the result... :( feeling so helpless at this moment when exam is abt 5 more days???

Nv did i tot that i could score so low, still dreaming of gettin an 80 when the result is a 55. something is wrong wif my understandin. DEADMAN WALKING...

Wednesday, November 5, 2008

1 more A into my collection

This week got back a quiz result which i got a B for maths

And 1 more A+ for my programming.

Uni is reali a shit place for geeks. Hate the smell of geeky geek. I simply dun belong to where i am. But nvm, human always survive on changes anrd them. so CHANGE!!

Exam in 1 weeks time, stress like hell. My study place is like a battlefield now. My beds and floors are all filled with papers. I am too shame of posting tt scene here, the scene of how a real man's room shld look like. haha.. its in our man instinct to be messy, i cant help me but be a man u noe.

Wednesday, October 22, 2008

its always a joy thinkin back..

lol.. was laughing all the way thru when i saw this clip again.

Its reali fun!! hw i wish i could go back time and enjoy those moments... But reality is always hash. Time for studies and a long holiday break is waiting for me... eerrmmmm ERH!!

Friday, October 10, 2008

feeling sinful!

This week, i reali gv up in studyin. Too mani n too little tt i understand. Did not touch any of my notes or homework. haha... feeling so sinful. N worst of all exams r comin up!! Juz had supper wif friends n played a game of DOTA. Its reali so fun to reali enjoy fun without thinkin of all the work tt nids to be done. LOL!! I nv feel so free, shld be more hack care abt studies! no pain no stress!! n TONS TONS of FUN!!

Tuesday, October 7, 2008

VIDEO!!!

Received this video frm my friend, i dare not view till 1 mth later.. LOL!!